Non(sense)-Duality

A – ttention

A – tension

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prefix a- typically means not.

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Chromatic means color, therefore achromatic means not color.

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Tension means tense. Therefore a-tension means not tense.

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prefix a – typically means not.

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If I want to be tense, be tension.

If I want to be not tense, be not tension.

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What is not tension?

Attention.

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The “opposite” of tension is attention. *

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Attention is real.

Tension is not.

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I think I know what attention is. It’s obvious.

Therefore I use it to stare at tension. Because I do not know what tension is.

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I think I know what it is.

I feel hard, contracted, stiff, tightened, coiled, jittery. I think I know what tension is (about). Tension is (about) (this) loneliness, (this) anger, (this) addiction, (the story about the) anger, (the) bitterness, (the) betrayal, (this meaningless) life, (the stresses at) work, (the bad news about my) health, uncertainty. Death.

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I think I know tension so I look at it day and night.

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Though isn’t it true

once I know what something is

I stop

looking at it.

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Once I know what tension is

I stop looking at it

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I can’t stop looking at tension because I actually don’t know what tension is.

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Tension is NOT about feeling hard, contracted, stiff, tightened, coiled, jittery. Tension is NOT about (this) loneliness, (this) anger, (this) addiction, (the story about the) anger, (the) bitterness, (the) betrayal, (this meaningless) life, (the stresses at) work, (the bad news about my) health, uncertainty. Death.

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Once I realize I don’t know what tension is, I may realize I don’t know what a-tension is either.

Once I realize I don’t know what a-tension is

I

may

start

looking

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and looking

and looking

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until one day I realize

I am attention.

And not tension.

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*attention has no opposite